I was that little girl that had life planned out down to the very last detail. I was going to have a cool single life like on friends but I would always have a boyfriend and then I would get married by 25 and then start having babies. I would live in a beautiful Victorian house not unlike on the manor on Charmed and there I would be a stay at home mom and raise brilliant children.
I very rarely have a boyfriend; I don’t have a super cool friends group that hangs out together all the time. Most of my close friends are married and while we still do things, our lives have taken us different directions and it can be hard sometimes to stay in touch.
I could technically get married by 25, however that seems very unlikely, considering my history and I really feel like I would need more time then I could currently be provided with to really know someone well enough to agree to deal with them for the entirety of my life. Also having babies right away does not sound like a great plan to have.
I don’t feel an overwhelming disappointment with the path I have taken. Sure I have made some pretty big screw up, but I really feel like even those things have taught me a lot. Even the ones I am still trying to recover from. I do however find myself struggling with being alone.
Now I do not mean alone, like I need a man, just I desire that friend group that I could hang out with a lot. I mean sure a man would be nice also, but I still need community with like minded individuals.
The problem is how to meet people. I don’t have a home church (an entirely different struggle I’ve been in), and I never went to college, so I’ve just really not been sure where to start or how to connect.
My mission is to become more involved in my community, try harder to find a home church, and maybe get into a class or activity that I find interesting.