People Always Leave

People always leave that’s the tale I’ve always known  

Even if love tries to reigns supreme, roads always seem to diverge in time 

I tell myself it’s all alright, get up and dust off the pain of another loss 

But still I would build another wall, the mortar laced with anxiety  

In every new beginning, just waiting for the end  

If I care about anyone it’s assured that pain will visit  

Expectations breed disappointments and so I just stopped believing  

Yet underneath it all, at the end of the day  

All I really want is someone to stay  

Not because I hold on to them or out of obligation  

But simply because they are compelled to do so  

Moved by some force no one can truly name  

“I’m not going anywhere” , a promise I long to hear  

Yet I begin to believe it to be impossible  

I’d stand here naked… if I thought it would help 

When I look back in time, reflect upon days gone by 

One thing still stands out from all of the rest 

All I ever really wanted was to be seen 

No, I don’t mean looked at, (though at times that’s something I crave) 

Seen, as in known and loved and understood 

Something like nirvana, an unobtainable goal, yet still I seek it 

At this moment there are more than 7 billion people on this earth 

7 billion people, 7 billion souls, on a mission all their own 

Is anyone out there like me? Searching for someone like me 

I am desperate for connection, it consumes me completely 

There are 7 billion souls, so why does it seem that I can’t even find one 

Just one person whose world collides with mine 

Though we are falling there is no fear 

Surrounded, protected, fully loved 

Authentic and vulnerable, trusting 

I am your person, and you are mine.  

There isn’t a word for how much I already love you 

I constantly wonder, have we passed like shadows on the street? 

Are you a world away longing for me the way I long for you? 

Or what if you are in my life but I’m too blinded by idealism that I’ve passed you by? 

The reality probably is that you simply don’t exist… 

I’ve read too many books and the man that I long for is but a figment of my imagination. 

What if this feeling of loneliness is something I’m meant to live with forever  

No such things as true love or soul mates or even perfect for me 

With that thought fear creeps into my heart…  

If I don’t snuff it out now, it threatens to consume my soul  

Like termites eating away at all that which is good and true  

All that’s left in its place is darkness, terrible and alone.  

I am stronger than the fear…  

If this is my journey than I will walk in it and find purpose alone  

There is power to be found in being alone and surrendering to the loneliness 

Where there is love it always finds a vessel  

Something or someone to channel towards 

There is great love within me and it will find a home  

There is also power in never loosing hope 

So, I’ll never stop searching for you 

Can I manifest you, dream you into existence, into my life? 

Cast a spell, conjure a way for our paths to intersect.  

I don’t need the perfect man, there isn’t one 

I imagine him to be tall, dark hair, something like a Viking  

But perhaps he’s short and blond, the knight of my heart 

Can we just be two imperfect people, diving into life and love 

Holding space in the corner of the ring for the fight of our lives 

Heart to heart, creating our own little miniverse  

Adventures down the rabbit hole, or through a blue box 

Flowers in the vegetable garden, goats on the lawn 

Sharing playlists, laughing, and telling our truth and the stories of our youth 

Dancing in the grass to music only we hear 

Barefoot dinner parties with those we love 

Conversations late into the night about the divine and ethics 

Marches against injustice and challenging each other to be better 

Feral babies nurtured to be love warriors  

Let’s do this our way, whatever that means 

No expectations or cherished outcomes…. just love 

Loving friends, pets, children, the world and each other 

Growing old together in rocking chairs on the porch 

Watching grandchildren play on cool summer nights  

A life spent painting a masterpiece to our love  

A picture far from perfect but an unmovable frame  

Rough edges and imperfections tell the story of the home we made 

Plenty of tears but free of tears, built on a solid foundation 

My lover and my friend 

This is the picture that I ache to create 

Where is the one that my soul loves? 

I call you to my heart, call your love to me.  

Across the winds, over the earth,  

Forged in the fire and baptized in rain  

Two whole people come together  

Weird jagged pieces that fit to reveal a bigger picture 

Maiden, Mother, Crone 

Father, Son, Holy Spirit 

North, South, East, West 

Let all of creation join in a chorus that moves us together 

I call upon the goddess, mother of us all 

Work your magic, divine a path to join two hearts 

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